Quick note before new years

so i had a good day today, didn't expect it to be so! went all the way to burwood for lunch and LANning (Counterstrike), even tho i sucked it was heaps of fun.. seriously.. getting kicked by 8 yr old kids who spend their whole days locked inside a stuffy room with computers is seriously fun.. no joking!

then went with 2 meet up with the rest of the crew in darling hbr for the ozfire convention run by CCC Oxford Falls. Was interesting, the preaching on offerings and money raised concern for me, but a subsequent chat with Paul @ Thai/Malaysian place in Chinatown seemed to explain everything.

so tmr is the last day of 2004.. how scary that a year has passed. I'm looking forward to tmr, it shuld be good, I've got 3-4 parties to attend! So popular this yr.. hehe..

my only regret is that i've bin slack to a certain group of ppl. Hope to give sum of them a call tmr and say hi, dunno whether they will appreciate it or not since I'm dogging them for other things, but I'm going to do it anyway... Part of the problem is myself and being 2 sensitive about things. I've realised this and I want to change that.

Nite
~Keith

Reflections on a good year gone past

This is probably one of the most self centered pieces of writing I'll do. Its so contrary to what Andy was preaching about this year, but I'd like to just reflect on this year in order to know where I am and know where I am going.

2004 has been a good year. Its been different, I've grown differently and I would say that I've become more mature in certain aspects.

New friendships have come, but also distancing of old ones. I've had new experiences, and I've learnt how to overcome fears to step up into leadership roles. I guess in summary I've learnt how to be responsible for myself and my actions.

So many things this year I'd like to write about. Firstly uni improved, only slightly but enough to make me feel proud of it. I guess I'm more aware of how to study now, I'm also more aware of what I enjoy studying. Uni improved also because I made new friends. Stuff in life is always more fun with company, and good company is such a precious thing.

Jobwise its been really good 2. Although I did have a bad experience at Elson Pow at the time, on reflection I learnt heaps and its taught me how to stand up for myself. My present job at myer is great, I'm always so thankful. And the friends I have there are great too.

Spiritually I've grown too. Taking up a leadership responsibility was unexpected, and its pushed me to know God more. And also in worship, its been a full year that I've been on the team and its pushing me to learn new keyboard skills and techniques.

There isn't anything I regret this year at all. I've become more comfortable with myself as a person. This doesn't mean I still don't get rocked by insecurities and bad stuff, but it means I feel better equipped to deal with crap that comes my way. God is truly my strength, in him I trust but I also feel he's left it up to me to be proactive and strong for my sake too.

Anyway I feel the pangs of sleepiness now
Nite~
Keith

hahaha kelvin is anorexic!

hehehehee.. sorry I love to make fun of my brother.. no offence Kelvin girl

So it was Christmas today, and what a good one it was 2! No dramas, just laid back chilling at home til evening when we went to Uncle Ahbin's for dinner. It was one of the most warm and enjoyable occassions I've been to in a long time. I got to chat heaps with my cousins Juyan and Jusheng, the conversation wasn't forced and I felt really comfortable around them. I've also learnt how to appreciate my uncle Ah-bin and Aunty Khemmy. They've been so great these last few years without dad, and its really nice to see their family as a whole unit. Kinda makes me sad when I remininsce (shit can't spelt this word)- sorry- reminisce of past times with dad, mum and Kelvin.

So the graveyard shift wasn't so bad (Thurs 23rd 9pm til Friday 24th 9am). Watched the finale Apprentice in the staff room whilst on my break- how lucky was my timing! and just did mark downs and register work for the rest of the morning/night. I feel I'm getting so comfortable at work, I really love the company there and its scary to think that I even dream about work!!!

I'd just love to pen down all these stories and inspirations I get from being at work. Every single person there just has such a big impact on me. I just see so many angles and perspectives on life.. I feel as if I'm on drugs or something!

Its so complicated what I feel, anyway dunno what else to write about, back to Max Payne!
Keith

i want to go to the beach!!!

take me to the beach... i can feel me falling for you.. damn forgot the rest of the lyrics!

Anyway I want to go to the beach. The weather is perfect for it and I just want to sit on the sand and wait for the sound of the ocean to gently lull me to sleep [ I had to think long and hard to come up with this poetic sentence]

haha.. anyway that was pretty gay of me, have I expressed to everyone how I think gay customers are much much nicer than everybody else!!! :D

This week has been good, I've recovered from a spiritual low today by actually picking up the bible and reading it and taking notes.. Been reading some books by Phil Pringle on faith too [got it from leaders retreat- damn.. now i have to explain what happened at leaders] and they've been inspiringly good too.

Leaders retreat was so good ( it was on last wkend). We got there friday nite in the pouring rain [a curse on you, spies of Saruman!!!] in Paul's car. And amazingly the weather was clear when I woke up Saturday morning. I awoke to one of the most memorable sights I've seen.. the beautiful Kiama coastline!!! Seriously to wake up to the sight of grazing cattle on a green carpeted headland and the splash of huge waves on a rocky beach- it was good!!!!

We had two houses for retreat, the house with THE VIEW and the PARYTING HSE, which as Ben Mitch described was the house from Queer Eye for the Str8 guy hehe.. The paryting hse was cool 2, flat screen tvs with DVDS, table tennis set and communal showers? haha..

yeah..well in point form leaders was good bcos [this is in no particular order]

1. fellowship

2. I won table tennis! well my 3 set match with Justin at least

3. the beach

4. the planning for nxt yr

5. the food .. hmm.. yummy roast beef and pork fat

well. yeah.. this blog has bin interrupted too many times
me going to play ps 2 now
bye!

Life is a rollercoaster just gotta ride it!

Why has this Ronan Keating song suddenly popped up in my brain? meh.. irrelevant.. nice song.. I just it reflects me mood at the moment..

So I was feeling pretty shitty Thursday (ystday). It felt as if my high school friends had dogged me.. yet again.. and all these bad memories from high school plagued me for the whole day I was at work. Customers were starting to get on my nerves and I felt I got the cold shoulder from the people at work I felt I had a connection with. So to make matters worse I looked into the mirror and saw a reflection I didn't want to see.. I'm so so glad I went to iceskating at Mac centre, organised by our resident Bluesky Korean gangster Tony! hehe.. my day just turned for the better as I saw my friends and the company/fellowship got my feeling good again.

I'm feeling tired now and I hope its not a serious medical condition. I got heaps of sleep last nite and today (naps) and I shouldn't realy be feeling this tired at this time.

We had our final wrap up blue sky tonight. It was cool to see everybody again! Nice to see new people and get to hang out.. I must admit I must not make a very good impression for the new people.. I tend to get tongue tied.. state stupid obvious things and generally appear as a fool!
Despite that it was good.. and .. well.. there are more things I want to say.. I'll leave it for my next blog.. but I do wish to thank God for all the friends he has blessed me with, both at church and at outside church. Must mention that dinner with Kelvin and Chun on Wednesday nite was great too (just in case they read my blog.. jk) I truly had a good time with you funky guys- gossiping about people at law school over green tea icecream at Y2K is my all time favourite past time!!!!


Nite