Work

Though I do love my job and the people at work, things do occassionally do get 'bumpy' and today for the first time I showed my scary face to someone who did not expect it.

It was weird, although it was unintentional, it worked.

It was an inner strength, or maybe a strength released from within with the help of someone above?

In any case, I hate being 'antsy'with anyone and being a very meek creature, love peace more than war.

I am struck by the innocence of those around me who show a love and passion for God that I have not felt for some time. I feel like the proverbial seed that was dropped on shallow soil, a plant sprouted from the seed but was choked by weeds and burnt by the sun.

It is difficult being me, but everyone has problems and I'm so grateful sometimes for the small things in life.

As a result of leaving only $10 in my bank account this week, for the first time in many a year I was left stranded with $5 at lunch time in martin place in the city. I was not left with much after getting a pie for $3.50, my money slowly dwindled as I bought a coke zero and other miscellaneous items. Finally at 5.45pm today, I had 25c left in my pocket. A very humbling experience.