Things that I know are wrong

One thing I've noticed about me, I tend to look at the things around me and covet. Last time I checked coveting is a bad thing, its basically a sin. I do more than covet sometimes, its almost a "kiasu" (scared to lose) thing, like a mentality or a mindset to be the best, to be better than others.

I realise that its pointless to be so "kiasu one", its also contrary to my beliefs and it has in the past led me to some 'destructive' behaviour. What does it matter that I don't look a certain way, or that I don't work at at top-tier law firm, or that I'm not the brightest student or I'm not the most popular person? In answer to my rhetorical question, I say "no, it does not matter". I resolve to remind myself of this every single time a covetous thought comes into my head!

I've also been thinking about the things I've said in the past to other people and I've realised how utterly wrong I've been about certain things. I guess you only realise it when you learn more from life experiences etc. Anyway I'm probably not making sense, but I want to be motivated in the right way and not do things for the wrong reason =)