Friday night

I'm blogging for the sake of blogging again. I just like to see the number of posts increase one by one. Yes I'm a sad case lol.

It was good to see some old uni friends again today. Its been at least a year since I've seen them, all of them are doing well, progressing with their professional careers. Meeting and eating dinner again tonight reminded me of uni times and also how we all became friends in the first place. I was reminded of the blessings and bountiful provisions in my life =)

I was also reminded of my present dilemma. I don't see myself as a corporate lawyer, I don't want to make myself squeeze through a "round hole". I hate doing applications for jobs that I know I don't suit. I disdain the feeling of inadequacy I feel when I'm around people whose lives are seemingly perfect with their high paying graduate jobs, beautiful partners anda great future ahead of them. This is what I feel, I'm not necessarily jealous and neither am I resentful, I'm merely articulating a feeling I felt last year when I found myself without a graduate job unlike so many of my peers. Many people around me didn't find jobs immediately either, I'm not the only one.

lol anyway before I delve further into a series of depressing angsty "stream of consciousness" sentences I'll take a step back and say that God is good, because this much I believe is true :)